It's been four months since Colleen Ballinger (a.k.a. Miranda Sings) last posted on either of her multi-million-subscription YouTube channels. Her last video, at first glance, postured like a standard ukulele-girl cover of "Riptide," was actually an apologetic response to allegations of the entertainer grooming young fans in song form.
"Toxic Gossip Train" further overtook the internet when Ballinger allegedly claimed copyright to get videos criticizing the song taken down. Despite denying the copyright infringement claims, the disgraced comedian has been radio silent from the platform where she grew her audience — until now. In a new video simply titled "fall vlog," Ballinger addressed the "really embarrassing" apology song video, which is still live on her channel.
"Obviously, the last video that I posted on here is really embarrassing, to say the least. I was being accused of some pretty awful things and I just was mad," she said. "I should have handled that situation with maturity and empathy, but instead, I just let my ego take over, and I'm really disappointed in myself."
Ballinger continued, "Over the last 15 years of my career, there have been moments where I was immature and inappropriate with some of my comedy. And there were times when I did not put enough thought into my fan interactions. And because of that behaviour, people got hurt, and I am so sorry. I never wanted to hurt anybody, but it's clear that I did, and I feel so terrible about that."
She added that she plans to continue posting on her vlog channel from this point forward and has since already uploaded another video called "What I've been up to."
"I am not a perfect person and there are plenty of things in my past that I wish I could go back and redo and fix and change," Ballinger explained, continuing:
I don't have control over any of that and I don't have control over the things that people say about me; I only have control over my actions moving forward. So I'm going to do everything I can to make sure that I create a positive, kind, inclusive, safe space online with my content. And if you want to be part of my journey online, I would love to have you, and if not, I completely understand. I do not expect anyone to welcome me back with open arms, I don't expect to change anyone's mind with this video. I just wanted to come on here and say that I'm sorry, and I wanted to try to show people that it's possible for someone to grow and learn and be better after making mistakes many years ago.
The content creator has faced allegations since 2020, when YouTuber Adam McIntyre posted a video claiming that Ballinger had "formed an inappropriate personal friendship with him" when he was between the ages of 13 and 16, which reportedly included her sending him lingerie as a joke. More context emerged this summer when NBC News published a new report with more context that saw additional Miranda Sings fans come forward with similar stories.
"Toxic Gossip Train" further overtook the internet when Ballinger allegedly claimed copyright to get videos criticizing the song taken down. Despite denying the copyright infringement claims, the disgraced comedian has been radio silent from the platform where she grew her audience — until now. In a new video simply titled "fall vlog," Ballinger addressed the "really embarrassing" apology song video, which is still live on her channel.
"Obviously, the last video that I posted on here is really embarrassing, to say the least. I was being accused of some pretty awful things and I just was mad," she said. "I should have handled that situation with maturity and empathy, but instead, I just let my ego take over, and I'm really disappointed in myself."
Ballinger continued, "Over the last 15 years of my career, there have been moments where I was immature and inappropriate with some of my comedy. And there were times when I did not put enough thought into my fan interactions. And because of that behaviour, people got hurt, and I am so sorry. I never wanted to hurt anybody, but it's clear that I did, and I feel so terrible about that."
She added that she plans to continue posting on her vlog channel from this point forward and has since already uploaded another video called "What I've been up to."
"I am not a perfect person and there are plenty of things in my past that I wish I could go back and redo and fix and change," Ballinger explained, continuing:
I don't have control over any of that and I don't have control over the things that people say about me; I only have control over my actions moving forward. So I'm going to do everything I can to make sure that I create a positive, kind, inclusive, safe space online with my content. And if you want to be part of my journey online, I would love to have you, and if not, I completely understand. I do not expect anyone to welcome me back with open arms, I don't expect to change anyone's mind with this video. I just wanted to come on here and say that I'm sorry, and I wanted to try to show people that it's possible for someone to grow and learn and be better after making mistakes many years ago.
The content creator has faced allegations since 2020, when YouTuber Adam McIntyre posted a video claiming that Ballinger had "formed an inappropriate personal friendship with him" when he was between the ages of 13 and 16, which reportedly included her sending him lingerie as a joke. More context emerged this summer when NBC News published a new report with more context that saw additional Miranda Sings fans come forward with similar stories.