Patrick Stump Pens Way-Personal Online Confessional: "I Hate Feeling Like the Awkward Adult Husk of a Discarded Once-Cute Child Actor"

Patrick Stump Pens Way-Personal Online Confessional: "I Hate Feeling Like the Awkward Adult Husk of a Discarded Once-Cute Child Actor"
A lot has changed for singer Patrick Stump since Fall Out Boy went on hiatus in 2009. He's lost a bunch of weight, shaved those silly-looking sideburns and delved into electro-driven R&B pop on his solo effort Soul Punk. Unfortunately, this seems to have been a failed experiment, since he has now confessed that his career has tanked.

In a blog update written last night (February 29) on his official website, Stump complained, "I'm a 27 [year-old] has-been." In the 1,500-word post, melodramatically titled "We Liked You Better Fat: Confessions of a Pariah," Stump went on to admit that he may never be able to match the success he had with Fall Out Boy.

"If I am to be obscure and financially unsuccessful, there's nothing disheartening in that," he wrote. "The thing that's more disheartening is the constant stream of insults I'm enduring in my financially unsuccessful obscurity."

He explained that his feelings have been hurt by the backlash against his change in direction: "What I wasn't prepared for was the fervor of the hate from people who were ostensibly my own supporters (or at least supporters of something I had been part of). The barrage of 'We liked you better fat,' the threatening letters to my home, the kids that paid for tickets to my solo shows to tell me how much I sucked without Fall Out Boy, that wasn't something I suppose I was or ever will be ready for. That's dedication. That's real palpable anger. Add into that the economic risk I had taken (In short: I blew my nest egg on that record and touring in support of it) the hate really crushed me."

The post gets even more depressing as it goes on. Stump complained, "It's as though I've received some big cosmic sign that says I should disappear. So I've kind of disappeared," and added, "I hate waking up every morning knowing I'm disappointing so many people. I hate feeling like the awkward adult husk of a discarded once-cute child actor."

He finished by saying that his career is in limbo and he's uncertain whether he will continue to release music or play live. Fall Out Boy remain on hiatus while the members pursue other projects, but Stump said that he would be "super psyched to do the band again." Given how his solo project seems to be going, we're not surprised.

Go here to read the entire blog post, but be forewarned: it's kind of a bummer.